I started this book at the first of this year and am enjoying it for the most part. I tried reading once before but only made it through January. This time has been much different; I find my self wanting to read it daily and wanting to find the authentic me. The me that God wants me to be. I did hit a stumbling for a few days when she talked about focusing back to when you were 10. She describes it as the happiest time for most children. A time when we are happy, innocent and just starting to assert ourselves. She says this is usually before we start trying to please others and are enjoying who we are. I kept picturing me with shorts, boots and a funky shirt and not caring about how my mom thought it looked. She was right in that respect but for me turning 10 was the turning point in my life. My mom made an announcement that would forever change her and our family, my parents divorced, we changed schools, I lost many of my friends and I never remember going back to church with my dad again other than when he remarried. For a couple of days those feelings all came rushing back to me and I felt so alone. I prayed and then suddenly it no longer seemed so overwhelming. I can not explain what happened but I just knew it was time to move on.
As awful as some of things that took place during that time were they did still help make me who I am. I often worry about people finding out all the details of my life but then almost as if God physically whispers in my ear I feel Him tell my heart it is OK, I love you and I can use you.
I look forward to continuing to this book, I am enjoying the journaling and the quotes and her assignments to do. I would encourage you if you ever want to take a closer look at who you are and want/need to love yourself more than this book would be a good starting place.
